Missing Pam..

Clan Ross
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My little sister should have been 40 today..

She’s the one missing from our family photo —

She should have been there on the beach with us.

She should have been there on the porch talking to grandma.

She should have been there looking up at the stars in wonder.

She should have been on the porch with me, Andy and the rest of her cousins.

She should have been here for me when I’ve needed her in the past few years.

She should have to be here when hard shit happens in the future.

She should get to be here when good things happen in the future.

She should have her own kids by now.

She should get to be Auntie to the best 20 and 10 year old kids she’d ever meet.

She should get to have a dinner Andy cooked.

She should get to have dinner with her HS vice Principal — and realize that he’s probably forgotten her HS sins long ago, because they weren’t that bad.

I should get to hang out with my sister — we spent long enough fighting, we were just getting to be pals when she died.

I should get to talk to her when I need it.

I’d say that I should get quiet times with her, but anybody who knew her knows that just didn’t happen… seriously, the girl could talk.

Most of all, I should get to welcome her into being 40 — really, it rocks…

I miss you Pam, I miss you a lot…. and, you shoulda been at the beach house with us, trust me on that.

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